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Title: 再次分开
Rating: PG
Pairing(s)/Character(s): implied-sort of- Kris/Suho
Length: 557 words
Summary: it's been so long.
Warning/s: angst tbh
Notes: an angsty drabble written while listening to 时间煮雨 on repeat and also while ignoring all of my other ongoing fics (ha h). also i might continue this. idk. and it's unbeta'd so all mistakes are ofc (as always) mine~

when junmyeon first hears about yifan singing an ost for a chinese film, he isn't able to give it much thought due to the schedules piling up and taking up his time. however, it sticks to the back of his mind like gum and at night, he's reminded of it. he thinks about it, unable to go to sleep. yifan's finally working towards his own success.

xxx


with exo's concerts and junmyeon's mc-ing schedules for inkigayo, the thoughts about yifan are pushed to the back of his mind and eventually forgotten. that is until the ost if officially released.

of course, junmyeon had, on occasion, seen small clips of the song being passed around on the net. however, he didn't want to listen to any incomplete version of it. he could wait. he would wait. he was good at waiting.

junmyeon downloads the song, 时间煮雨, on his phone and just looks at the pictures of yifan's face as the audio finishes downloading. the download comes with added lyrics - in korean and chinese. the site provided them. junmyeon doesn't look at the lyrics yet. he wants to listen to the song first.

he doesn't actually get to listen to the song until late night though, the practices for the next concert stage filling up the hours during day.

after showering, he lies down on the lone bed in his hotel room in shanghai. it's the same city that exo performed as 12 last. that exo truly were as 12 last. it's also the last place junmyeon saw yifan in person.

junmyeon has a hotel room with a single bed now. the rooms he used to share with the former fellow leader, now emptier. it's kind of nostalgic, junmyeon thinks about it, listening to music late at night. except he doesn't have anyone in the bed beside him now, sharing the earphones with him and holding him in their arms. yifan used to do that a lot, and junmyeon got used to it.

it's hard for junmyeon to not feel empty in hotel rooms nowadays, even though it's been weeks, more than two months, since yifan's left.

sighing, junmyeon presses the play button on his phone after securing the ear buds. the melody reaches his ears and he relaxes, closing his eyes. when junmyeon hears yifan's voice sing out, his breath catches.

it's been so long.

junmyeon just listens to the song, trying not to think too much. yifan's voice is soothing and it washes the stress away from his body. junmyeon catches a few words and phrases that he understands, but he doesn't pay much attention to them. he can look at the lyrics and meaning later.

for now, junmyeon just wants to drown himself in yifan's voice - strong, calm and melodious.

after hearing the song on repeat for a few times, junmyeon opens his eyes - now wetter than they were when he closed them. his thumb scrolls down the lyrics, his eyes reading line after line of korean characters.

the lyrics are oddly ironic, junmyeon realizes. and the more he thinks about it, the worse he feels.

he reads the lyrics again and again, with the song and yifan's voice filling in the emptiness of the hotel room. junmyeon's tears accompany him along with yifan's voice, to slumber that night.

fin.

Date: 2014-07-22 12:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] snow-meow.livejournal.com
So bittersweet.
Joonmyun finally has a part of Yifan accompanying him yet he needs him in person.

Date: 2014-07-22 06:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] psharp10.livejournal.com
ah yes ;; bittersweet wasn't a word in mind when i thought to describe this drabble, but the more i think about it, the more accurate that word seems.

i was thinking about maybe continuing this, with hopefully an appearance from yifan in the future...thanks though!

Date: 2014-07-22 10:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hipployta.livejournal.com
Such is life...we each take our own path. Joonie is a bit sad

Date: 2014-07-22 06:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] psharp10.livejournal.com
i would say more than just a bit sad, but yes, such is life..
thanks!

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